2004 SingApore Osc0rs Awards

The Lan Actress of the Year goes to..... Ms Samantha Wendy Leo..!!

I am an actress, a terribly lan actress.. was just letting my thoughts run wild in the office today, and realised that I have been acting my life all these while.. I acted my life like a drama, a movie and another that can fight for a place in the Osc0rs Awards.. Then I realised, i am not a good actress, but an impractical and lousy actress.. no wonder I can't win my desired award, no wonder i can't win even the supporting roles.. I am just a lan actress..

I am so impractical.. i used to have silly thoughts in my weeny brain.. thinking that someday, my prince will come riding on a white horse.. someday my true love will come and we would live happily ever after.. perhaps that only happens in films, in fairy tales like snow white or cinderella.. that does not really happen in real life.. so i have been acting.. acting foolishly in a lonesome film, where nobody watches and nobody appreciates.. I have been acting in front of people, and lost understanding of the true meaning of life.. it opened my eyes to alot of things, such as the harsh world and the evilness in human hearts.. perhaps the weak will always be bullied.. I guess I acted a kind character then, with lots of innocence within, that's why I felt bullied.. I felt deceived by the world and I felt let down by those supposedly kind people I trust.. I was a blind actress..

I matured as an actress, yet I decided to quit acting.. I am just too lan in it.. acting isn't a suitable job for me.. I ought to find something which I can do better in.. From today onwards, I shall quit from the "entertainment" world and no more acting for me.. I want to live a real life, treating people sincerely and be straightforward in my thoughts and feelings.. dare to love and dare to hate.. no more hiding and shielding myself from this harsh world.. I will not be nominated for any awards again.. I will be my true self.. thank you for reading..