TuesDay

I was there chatting with my saporo ex-co 3 hrs ago.. we talked abt ivan, abt r/s, abt other things.. he knew i am upset and tried to cheer me up.. but he failed.. today is just another of the downdown dayz.. i know i have been thinking too much again and there's noone and no medicine tat can cure this syndrome.. issit called down syndrome..?? turning abit crappy here.. ya, I AM DOWN TODAY.. might appear nonchalant in chats, so pple, pls FORGIVE ME.. I dunno why i kena this mood swing again.. spoken to ivan and prayed tat he will NOT recover my files.. he knew I am upset too and I am REALLY upset..

was thinking that life is full of disappointments, disappointments of many sorts.. these few days i experienced several, perhaps they made up some of the reasons for this "down syndrome".. was waiting for close frens to watch kungfu with me, yet was told tat they watched it in kl.. killed all my anticipation to watch it.. was talking to mum all the while yet discovered she wasnt listening.. super disappointed here as in ur mum isnt interested in wat happened to you.. was rejoicing over the xmas gift from sis (first time in so many yrs) yet revealed tat it was a free gift.. kinda killed all the love i felt.. new yr eve plan falters.. changed plan gg drinking with saporo lor.. does anyone care? does anyone rem me?? HELLO!! am I transparent or what??! planning on a hideaway, gonna lock myself up in some chalet and disappear for a while.. I AM INVISIBLE.. ~_~