BliSSful

He left for Batam this morning and we could only meet on Sat.. it had been fun and blissful this week... he came to stay over often and both my parents like him... barely one month, AK has been consistent and growing sweeter everyday... he bought us a pair of rings yesterday and had each other's names engraved on the rings.. i never had anyone else did this for me and i felt so blissful.. at least he did what he promised 2 weeks again.. though its a pair of inexpensive silver rings but the intangible value is far greater than the price tag.. i feel tat we are some 17-18 yrs old kids.. everything seems so innocent and cute.. how i wish it could remain like this forever.. but then i am enjoying every minute of the process and i am not going to care what may happen in future :D

btw.. I FOUND A JOB, PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i'll be working for AVNET...!! HAHA... applied for the inside sales exe position and got the job after a brief interview... the HR mgr put in many good words for me and i will not disappoint her.. the pay is much better, benefits are perfect and location not bad!! somemore its operating 5-day week... i would have so much freedom on a sat!!!! looking forward to work and i'm gg shopping later....!!! to refurnish my wardrobe with new office wear... then would be CHEONG CHEONG CHEONG!!!! WAHAHAHAAA.........

It has been a rollarcoaster ride these 10 months.. have seen people come and go, ups and downs.. Not an easy battle to fight for outta love... not an easy task to accept someone new.. heard another fren has broken up with bf.. must be terrible for her.. 6 yrs r/s just gone with the wind... For those who are upset at this moment, my words might sound like fart.. cuz i'm in 7th heaven now.. but then when i was down, who really knows?? and who really cares..?? The feeling of outta love.. cant eat, cant drink, cant sleep, cant work, cant study, cant even think.. my results deteriorate, my work looks like shit.. tearing every minute, kept on carrying a hope tat he'll be back and everything went back to DAY 1.. whenever I cried, the heart just feels like shattering.. the pain is so intense and i can even feel it in the bones.. often, i would wake up in the middle of the night crying, thinking what he's doing at that moment and if he's thinking of me too.. i just cant accept the fact tat he has stopped loving me, and he had left me for "my own good.." (WTF is tat..??) sometimes, a silent break could be better than a noisy break.. imagine, someone could tell u "I dont love u anymore, I have no feelings for you and my feelings for you have already died.." these are things tat u wouldnt want to hear in your next lifetimes... sometimes, somethings are better left unsaid.. to be able to move on and seek ur own happiness reveals a brave warrior in you.. It wasnt easy, I know and you know.. it takes alot of courage.. you may say tat you would rather spend bad times with him rather than good times with someone else.. but 6 months down the road, you may realise this is crap.. you never know unless u try.. i am saying this cuz i have came across this b4.. when he pushed me away, telling me tat he isnt good enough for me and there could be someone better than him.. i told him straight that THIS FACTOR IS DECIDED BY ME NOT BY YOU OR ANYONE ELSE, THERE IS NOONE BETTER THAN YOU.. i was proven wrong.. super wrong.. I am glad tat AL left me afterall.. I think I have to thank him instead.. if not for him, I would not be able to find AK.. God is good to me afterall.. to think I actually blame God tat time, blame HIM for letting AL hurt me so much and what have i ever did to make someone hurt me so intensely..?? but then, HE just want me to see more things, to be more exposed to the ugliness in human hearts.. therefore, dun trust people so much.. I never tot i could find AK.. he just came along... maybe its fate bah.. I am very happy even when i was single.. I have a bunch of lovely GPC members, i grow closer to my family and my life became much better.. i even feel prettier and sexier.. everything happened even before AK came into my life... I have conquered the battle.. I dun see why others cant do it.. Take a few months of silence and soul-searching and you could be like me.. I took 9 months, i dun see alot of people would take longer than me.. all wounds heal, it merely depends on TIME..

My remedies for those OUTTA LOVE:
1. Shopping, shopping and more shopping
2. Hang out with gfs
3. Go Cheong
4. Fill ur wardrobe with new clothes
5. Splurge and leave ur bank acc with nothing *wahahaa*
6. Pei ur family more often
7. Play and talk to your dog *if u have one*
8. Quit/Change your job
9. Listen to alot of music and SING KARAOKE
10. Exercise and do aerobics.. visit Sentosa for tanning
11. Change your usual dress style.. wear mini skirts, wear lesser fabric
12. Dun sit in front of the PC everyday
13. Watch movieS
14. Stay away from MEN
15. Tidy up your room

these are about the things I've done after breakup with my 1st bf... it does heal.. dun say tat I am farting, though I really feel like farting.. but it does really help.. in extreme cases, you may wish to conduct a pillow fight or hit the arcade machines.. you may wish to call 1800-SAVE YOU for the samaritans to help...

AUNT AGONY - SamSam...