Wrap my words ard you..

Listening to daniel beddingfield's "Wrap my words ard you" now..

alot of tots came to me while I was folding paper wrappers awhile ago.. i decide to write this.. my life encountered alot of changes since last Aug.. when the big break sipped in.. it totally changed my life and made me take on a different perspective towards life since then.. in fact, it brought abt alot of realizations and reflections on myself.. I matured alot but could never keep up tat innocent grin i used to have.. this is called growing up.. why do people have to grow up? Growing up truly hurts..

the most impt thing i realise abt myself is tat i was wrong abt myself.. i have always tot tat i'm very patient.. but in fact, i was indeed patient to everyone else, just, except myself.. i have been too impatient on myself.. wanting things to happen quickly for me and wish for quick success.. forcing and pushing myself all the time.. expectations too high and demanding too much.. i want myself to do well in everything - my job, my studies and my life.. i threw tantrums at work whenever i feel i din do well in something.. i broke down when i cant answer a tutorial question, and i got frustrated when i run out of ideas for assignments.. i just want time to pass quickly and make myself a successful person..

i realised, i've lived life wrongly.. God probably sent a messenger to correct me and bring me to my senses.. am i finding excuses..?? HAHA.. maybe its time to get back to "earth", to get back to reality.. i'm sure things from now on will be great.. there shd be many things for me to look forward to instead of looking backwards.. another thing i realise abt myself.. I still prefer handsome guys KEKEZ... stealing glances at Peter Robinson whenever i can in the office.. he's the only caucasion in real life who's ever stolen my heart WAHAHA.. i look at handsome guys in the train, in the bus, along underpass, Orchard Rd or wherever i can spot them.. call me the HG scouter bah :)