Perth

Recently I tried to invite a long-time friend to my wedding but was rejected, saying she is now in Perth, "sorta" helping a friend run HIS business... it makes me wonder, what business is that, and what kind of friend HE is to her... And what beats me is, this friend whom I knew for 9 years, had been close for several years, did not even tell me she will be relocated to Perth for about a year. And it also makes me wonder how true it is, and whether is she trying to find an excuse just to close this invitation? What if I bump into her one day? Well, I have thought about it already. The first question I will ask her is, "Eeee... you back already..??" Sounds sarcastic right..?? Heehee...

This friend of mine has quite a long history with me... 9 years is not very long but also not considered short right? We met in 1998, where I enrolled for my Diploma course in IBMEC Simei. Her name in short, is Han. Soon, Han, Rach, Siti and I became the closest friends in IBMEC. We were rather hip, outspoken at that time, cuz most of our classmates are Indonesians who can't even speak English well.. We studied together, play together, made fun of lecturers together and we really had fun in our 2-year journey.. Han and I were closer, even though, Siti and her were secondary classmates.. We often hang out together after class, shopping, eating, chit-chatting at void decks, talked about our dreams, our future plans, and her future bf/husband blah blah blah... at that time I never talked about bf. At 18, I still don't see myself suitable to have a bf, and also never really thought about it.. But she was the more daring one.. could go after guys she likes, pass guys her HP# on a slip of paper, and sees herself married at 25... (This plan backfired cuz she is now 26.. kekez =X)

After we left school and started working, we still kept in touch, still talked like good friends.. often met at our favourite hangout - Tampines Mall or Century Sq Delifrance.. When I was working in the music school in 2002, we even arranged a choir performance in the nursing home where she worked then.. we were still close friends then.. things took a turn somehow.. through the years, we stopped contacting so much.. she began to take to the internet, msn, friendster and blogging.. I lagged behind... we seldom met since then.. she changed jobs after jobs - admin, sales, nursing home, marketing, retail, communications, etc. While I remained faithfully in 2 companies for the past 7 years. Our conversations began to lessen and we somehow drifted apart.. she had new friends while I hang out with my colleagues or just myself... In Sep 2004, a month after I broke up with my ex-bf, we met up at Changi Airport. She was crying profusely, after being ditched by a pilot whom she met online... they somehow "got together" online while this guy was undergoing commercial pilot training in Australia... He got a vacation for several weeks, so he came back to SG to meet up with this cyber gf... well, she kept saying she loved him, but somehow, things didnt turn out the way she wished. From the way she described, like the guy said, "You looked alot different from the pics.." blah blah... I can very well guess that the guy is checking out a "goods return" policy.. but she didnt get it and kept pressing the guy to hang out with her... a lot of gestures are obvious: didnt pick up her call, didnt reply her sms, claimed that he was sick, couldnt pick up the phone, blah blah.. isnt it obvious enough...?? And, she still didnt get it... we were like talking for 4 whole hours, consoling her and myself.. I was pretty in ruins that time cuz that breakup was horrendous... we were just consoling each other and feeling bad for each other...

So, just one fine night, we met on MSN and she told me this story: One day, they went out and this guy drove a SPORTS CAR... then they went back to his CONDO and made out... the next day, the guy said she wasnt suitable for him... DUHZZ... she was crying profusely again and feel like dying... hmm.. sian 1/2... I think I have told her to give up before, but she just didnt buy it... In Jan 2005, I invited her to my bday chalet and she turned up with Rach... that was the last time we ever met on an "arranged date".. the next time we met was in Sentosa, coincidentally, in Feb 2005.. I was there with GPC and she was there with her buncha friends.. funny thing is, she didnt try to "recognise" me... she ignored me totally, even though we were sharing the same beach.. I hopped over to say "Hi" to her, but she just mumbled.. we didnt talk at all.. during the seem-like-a-million-years of a 5mins duration I was there, it was her friend who entertained me.. I was like chatting to her friend instead of this lao peng you... It really beats me what took a turn of her behaviour towards me.. one month ago, we were still having fun in the chalet, and we were still talking.. but she seemed to shut herself up out of a sudden.. After that Sentosa thingy, we don't talk on MSN anymore.. everytime we see each other online, it was pure silence.. noone initiated to open a window... I eventually did melt... I initiated conversations sometimes.. but all I got was "Yes", "No" or one-word answer... Example:

Me: Hi, how are you gal...???
Her: hi
Me: What are you doing now..?? keke
Her: nothing
Me: Working..?
Her: no

You got the picture...???

We drifted apart even more... out of a sudden somewhere in Aug 2005, she initiated an msn window, only to feed me news of my ex.. she happened to meet him through work and just checked out with me is it really him... the funny thing is, she had never met him before, I didnt even tell her that he USED TO be in my friendster until I deleted him after the breakup... she somehow made her own research that it was him and started telling me stories, which I don't ever want to be reminded of that person.. what a good friend she is - thank you... after that, I don't ever want to initiate any conversation with her... if you knew that your so-called good friend is so hurt by this man-beast, would you want to irritate her by feeding her stories of the beast..?? what is your intention and what benefit will you reap..?? strange women... just can't let me enjoy my peace... Then last year somewhere in Oct, she came back to haunt me again.. she msn me checking the name of my ex.. didnt she knew it already..?? heng ah, I had left office already but did not log out from MSN.. her Qn remained unanswered and I never want to reply her anyway.. I wonder what funny idea she has on her sleeves... So, I never told her I have new bf - ie Aaron, got a flat, ROM, blah blah.. until this wedding invitation came along... maybe she is jealous or she is simply thinking too much...

Sometimes I wonder why people's behaviour changed so much... we used to be close friends and now became strangers and having a bit of bitter feeling... I am rather upset that this friendship had to be wasted, and I also lament about our youth together, the wonderful carefree times we spent together... But it takes 2 hands to clap... hers doesnt clap with mine... I am thinking of giving up this friendship, cuz I am tired now.. I kept telling myself I should focus my time and effort to build better relationship with better friends, friends who truely care about me... But I still get sleepless nights thinking about her... wondering is there a way to make us good again..?? Am I wasting my time..?? Hmmm.....

Funny me, I started this entry with the title "Perth" but all my talk is irrelevant ahahahaha... I actually plan to upload some of my pics and captions for my Perth trip in Jan, which I totally missed out, but thinking of Perth makes me think of her.. and thus.. all you have read so far are my COMPLAINTS..!!!!!!!!!!! WAHAHAHAA........ I think I will keep the Perth thingy another day bah :)