Loneliness

Ever since I had Aaron, I never felt so lonely before... I will be sleeping alone almost for the next 2 weeks and the house is really really quiet without him around.... That stupid reservist thingy..!! And his kind of reservist is the cannot-go-home type.. Today we met briefly in the evening and he had to report back to camp by 11.30pm.. He wont be home till Wed night.. Thu night he'll be back but I have to attend a wedding dinner.. this day will be burnt as he has to report back to camp same time... =( So sad... Then from Thu, he'll be gone all the way to the 2nd weekend of Feb... even sadder.. This came as kinda "surprise".. cuz I have seen colleagues going on reservist but they are the office-hour kind.. the kind where they can "knock off" and be home for dinner... sigh... but my dear is the Guard.. he has to go training, exercise.. blah blah blah.. Then from Thu, he'll transfer to Lim Chu Kang camp.. where he'll be "locked up" for more than a week.... sad sad.. To think, I thought he could come home every day.. Haiz.. so lonely.. and now even worse.. no friends on msn at this hour.. I could only talk to bloggie... tata..