The paSSing of yet another Day

Thursday is DEAD and now comes Friday... had so much fun at the ktv and so nice to see our Elena baby back to camp~!! Shall rock and roll again on sat k ^_^ *so looking forward to another GPC gathering...!!* and just now we were saying GPC without her is G-Cube, without Chris is G-String, without Fernie is G-Force and without ME is Baby-G.. then when we are each on our own, We are GI JANE!!! Not forgetting GI Jean, GI Joan and GI June~!! WAHAHAA... so cute :)

Ok, back to the ktv thingy.. met up fernie's hunk YW and his 28-yr-old colleague Mr Ah-Huat.. sounds like some hokkien ah-pek issit..??! haha.. they are quite nice people... we sang abt 4 hrs.. with Elena turning into Deng LiJun, Fernie doing her Melody-&-Landy-Stuff and me crooning my CoCo-LoCo.. total damage is 15 bucks per lady...

YW is impressive... and, based on my barely there knowledge of GP (in class nia), he really resembles him in the way he talks, etc.. plus he is so bloody TALL.. ChriS, see it for urself if got chance next time.. u know, the kind of confidence when talking, slow and clear, etc.. walau.. Fernie.. u Kio Tio ^_^ Seems like the ah-Huat uncle likes elena wahaha... shd be thinking "Walau, this girl sibeh cute hor.." WAHAHHAAA.... in the end, the 3 poor GPC girls had to make their own way back, as the guys ARE NOT SENDING THE PRETTY GALS HOME :( hailed a cab along the way and got home in a jiffy!!

A good thing tat happened is AK din join today *Phew*.. he called me on the cab and sent several sms while we were k-boxing.. Now comes my dilemma as he is SupEr AGGressive hor.. i kinda felt tat he has already taken me as GF though i told him yest tat i wasnt ready, it was too fast and I THINK I NEVER SAY YES MAH..!!!! I am gg crazy too as sometimes I wanna go with him and sometimes i dun... YES, i may have yearned to be pampered and have someone at your beck and call.. but then, saying YES to him is like making use of him when i dun have special likings for him.. he can pay for my entertainment and whatsoever and even can buy me presents.. but then, i dunno if we can be tog for long as I am not sure if he is THE ONE... HOW AH..??? and i tot of KP lor.. he would be so damn disappointed to hear tat.. which i would be sad if i made him upset.. actually AK is lagi heng... cuz he came in when i am recovering and starting to get my life back on track.. if he had came in months earlier, i would have shun him or chided him like mad.. just like tat Gym Guy who pestered me non stop abt 6 mths again... tat time i was mentally and emotionally unstable and i did crazy things...

right now, dun wanna think liao, my hair has dried so its time to KunnZzzz.... nitey :)

Rose Rose I love You...

The GPC all got a rose... ChriS, have u got urs yet...?? think i din see u lately on msn so dunno if u have noticed my nick/pic has been changed to blackie rosie kekekez... now fernie is blue rose and elena has taken white.. we all think RED is cool for u...!!! now, get a rose too!!!!! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!!!!!!!

..:: Blackie Rosie ::..

Go patoh with me, good..?

He popped the Qn liao.. fast neh... expected la.. I said NO.. cruel..??! Haha... I dun want it to be so quick.. seems like love in the fast lane.. haiz... anyway, my dear readers, I DUN have feelings for him lei :( He only made me comfortable, laugh abit and treat me like a princess, but he din impress me or give me a tingling feel.. i feel rather bad.. if i say YES to him, would I be making use of him, getting him to pay for my meals/entertainment/transport/etc while i continue my search for the so-called "fateful" one.. walau..!! wat a lousy feel... i rather not meet him outside O-bar, so i could continue my carefree life w/o having to care abt such things.. anyway, i told him to wait and even said tat if there's anyone else he has in mind, PLS GO AHEAD... but i think he's already ONZ for me.. *KAO*

***plus points*** he made me laugh when he did his magic tricks using some pieces of string and a deck of poker cards.. he was a magician and the tricks really impress me though.. i was like spent $0 the whole day when i was with him.. he's really attentive bah.. and he CAN talk some sense sometimes... he has his own logic and principles.. though they din impress me much but at least he isnt really what i think: a childish and bo-nao kinda person...

*** minus points*** he has aaron kwok's height but not his face.. Kekez.. boy-boy look... abit immatured and sometimes look like a schoolboy... talk rot outside (sometimes i wish i could hide my face and DIE)

Haizz... i am quite superficial hor.. kekekez.. sometimes i feel i am such a JERK#$&^%*%*& lei... while shopping for his suit at G2000, i tot of JK, used to shop with him, giving him opinions and ideas.. he looked so much suaver and so much cuter.. he can be like an accessory to me, a handsome one... saw some designs JK used to like and they triggered some memories... when he held my hand, i tot of AL... AL could hold my hand for hrs and never loosen the grip.. its so comfy to hug him too :) so, am I a JERK..?? while with him think of other people more.. WAHAAHAHA... alamak! i dun care la.. so now, i just KIV Mr AK (AARON, not KWOK)...

YAY!!! cheong night again on sat...!! Wear what har..??! KTV tomolo!! fernie's hunk is coming!!! so shall we call him TH (Tall Hunk) or YW (Yiwei)?? AK coming along too.. even when he doesnt sing.. can steal a chance to see me, he would def do it... TH is bringing along a colleague too.. dunno good catch or not, shall see see ^_^

Monday Report

Almost couldnt wake up on time for work this morning.. been rather used to late nights and i simply wont fall asleep past midnight.. 8.45-5.45 was spent working.. doing adhoc HR admin duties and eating lunch on my own at the nearby canteen.. spent 3 bucks on a bowl of bland, tasteless sliced fish bee hoon.. landed fernie a temp job at avnet.. will be working in the finance dept doing data entry and admin work.. paid 8.50/hr and reporting to a rather matured but handsome angmoh boss... she be starting work on wed while i report for work again at HR next tue covering Lydia who will be gg for a surgery..

Read Blurry's blog.. 100% agreed on the disgusted-ness feeling abt rainbow's boasting on how high in demand she is.. I only know tat talking about men who are interested in me will have my face bleaming red.. she dun feel paisey one meh..???!!! she tend to give me the feeling tat she is super grade A while the men who are after her are all grade G and below.. and one gossip on the past.. she used to call my flesh and blood bro "Kor~" till my hair stand... so dearly tat it sounded almost my kor is her kor, instead of my kor.. but in fact is not her kor but my kor, the kor my mother gave birth to 2 yrs earlier than me... WAHAHAA... so many Kors.. sound like glue kekez... Feel tat if she continues to hang herself so high up to sell and wont change tat 38-ness, when can she ever find a man..?? maybe she can search in another planet... God bless her lar... AMEN...

So gals.. excited about my first official date with the tutor with a stupid grin?? So Aaron (Yupz, too bad, not kwok) booked me on a dinner date.. I was 10 mins earlier while he's 10 mins late.. **-50pts** when he arrived, he din grab my hand like tat day at O-bar, else i will @#$#@**%$&... for this, **+5pts** Walked fr Orchard Stn to Heeren to makan @ Marche.. He very the damn stuuuupid one.. why not meet at Somerset so can save the extra miles..?? I very the hungry lei... OK, we ordered a soup, a salad and a plate of super creamy spag.. leave the creamy spag out for me, i just munch on my cheesy ceasar salad.. Been chit-chatting.. talking rot, 38 abit, blah blah blah blah blah... the funny thing abt him is he is just so FUNNY sometimes.. when i ask a chee-siao Qn, he would look very serious and think thoroughly b4 answering... Abit regretful saying tat he did not do a very good job when tutoring us.. yalor, no wonder he's my most hated tutor.. told him abt my declaration during the ATT meeting and we had a good laugh on tat.. he looks better when he din smile.. cuz when he smiles, it appear as a stupid grin to me which i disliked since 2003 WAHAHAAAA.... Dinner was so-so, the chat ok la.. giving him credit for picking the tab **+5pts**

We walked to DG stn, still early (8pm) so he suggested gg to East Coast Park.. since i no work tomolo and he will send me home on a cab (means i no need to pay la) so take this chance to get to know him better.. found a bench, sat down and talk.. din do anything la.. OK, trust me, man!! I am a decent gal ^_^ somemore there, so many people... got to know more abt him.. din dig much into the family thingy as feel tat he is not in good terms with them.. somemore i am not a 38 OK!! the mercs he drove to school last time was the family car which the dad won in a lucky draw.. *very the heng hor*.. his dad plays golf.. he's not working now but starting work next week.. alot of blah blah blah... quite fun in the chat and when we decided to walk out of ECP, he turned a bit agressive and held my hand.. and so, we held hand all the way.. somehow i din resist la... but then.. i was abit mean lor.. cuz though the hand is his, yet i imagined it as someone else's hand *KEKEZ* I admit tat i dun have that strong feelings (or none at all??) for him and kinda taking him as a substitute for something.. I think i must have yearned the feeling of being pampered by a guy and tat explained the non-resistance.. after walking thru the underpass, he hailed a cab and we proceed to a kopithaim to sip tea.. i din dig anything abt his past relationships.. maybe i wasnt interested bah.. i dunno.. maybe i dun have any interest in him lor.. he did ask if i have bfs b4.. if course i say yes la.. where got people as dumb as r*inbow who would say NO? its like inviting people to think: "I'm a virgin, I'm innocent..!! Come, devour me!!" Oh, i am so bloody mean =P But in fact, i did have r/s lor.. and a damn terrible one tat caused me to lose all feelings for anyone..

He got ask stupid Qns which i would be an idiot if i dun understand his intentions.. alamak.. i just act blur la.. Like, which area would u prefer to buy a flat? Can u get used to old housing estates? (his rented flat is in old old Bedok) I am not tat rich lei, do u really aspire to be a taitai?? All those blal blah Qns.. and he is very eagered to know and get into my family... actually he would expect me to know cuz he came with an intention, a very strong intention and he is very agressive.. kinda giving me the feeling tat he is a desperado, just like our Ms R*inbow.. maybe they could make a pair..?? I think very soon, he will pop the Qn.. I would feel it is very unfair to him as i dun have a tingling feel when he is close to me, or even hold my hand and kissed me (on the cheeks la - his mouth will rot if he dares steal a muack) very different for the feel i had for my past bfs.. all the while i kept imagining he is someone else.. but my fun-loving nature is acting up as I think it is very fun to go out with a guy again.. free meals, free movies, u get all the attention u want and he'll be at ur biding, carrying things for u, doing things as per ur instructions.. get all fidgety if u cry etc etc... but why not KWOK..?? he is never the guy of my dreams and he is in fact someone whom i would never ever dream of gg out with... Overall evaluation, he is really a boy-boy.. rather immatured and still very unsettled.. he is growing up la, but still takes some time, at least 2-3 yrs bah.. i feel very privileged being with him but i dunno... really have to follow the heart i think.. but i wont force myself la...

Lazy Sunday

So i nua at home for the 2nd day in a row... haizz... tomolo got work @ LC office.. feeling abit sianz but have to spur myself on for the $$$$$!! running dry liao le :(

Though nua-ing but still make my empty sunday worthwhile.. did the aerobics followed by face spa!! cleanse, scrub, steam, and put on 2 masks~!! *shiok* also did a back spa, putting on an anti-acne mask after cleansing and scrubbing.. not forgetting the refreshing Elizabeth Arden green tea body scrub during the shower.. everything was almost done except the foot soak and massage.. gonna do it very soon!!

These are what i did today.. till then, tata ^_^

Confessions of a 21st century Desperado

An extract of my conversation with Rainbow.. *Faint*
(Note some unimpt remarks, such as OK, OIC, blah blah blah are deleted to save space)

*Woman is fearsome but sorrowful creatures*
Halo

(*) Belli the cute (*) ^_^
yo!

……….

(*) Belli the cute (*) ^_^
so today got enjoy?

*Woman is fearsome but sorrowful creatures*
yah.... ard 1plus then started the enjoyment

(*) Belli the cute (*) ^_^
i dun really like the place lor... still prefer the old place.. dbl o

*Woman is fearsome but sorrowful creatures*
but today get to noe some ppl
Next time call more ppl to join the fun

(*) Belli the cute (*) ^_^
haha.. where to find?? actually most my frens not cheong type one

*Woman is fearsome but sorrowful creatures*
ur frenz and kp's frenz
actually got 2 guy who ve crush on me wan to come along
but I dun allow
I want peace
I want peace
JUz dun want them to join
one is msian
other is spore
the spore wan me to be his happiness
marry him in future
All low quality
Can I ve a better man pls
My Prince ve to wait coz he not yet appear mah!
At least start next yr
now enjoy
Love depend on feeling
once fallen in love ....hack care gd looking or not still stay handsome to u
But ppl told me ...choosse a person who love u more than u love him
It'll be ur most happiness
For me if cant find then let it be bah
as well as I can earn and support myself thats gd liao

(*) Belli the cute (*) ^_^
attached very the no freedom one

*Woman is fearsome but sorrowful creatures*
same here ...infact I've fear to be tied down
When I was dwn there's a guy for me
I like him
He is working in OTO
everyday my lunch time go find him
chinese thai man
2 years older than me

(*) Belli the cute (*) ^_^
i'm sleepy liao hehehee
u no need sleep ma??
hahah better go sleep liao
tok to u again ok!!!!!!!!!!!

*Woman is fearsome but sorrowful creatures*
chat tomolo, bye

……………………..

*Woman is fearsome but sorrowful creatures*
Heh..... I tink fernie and morning tat guy is very compartable (Spelling error - compatible)

Black Rose AKA Hei Mei Gui
Haha

*Woman is fearsome but sorrowful creatures*
WHAT DO U TINK??

Black Rose AKA Hei Mei Gui
on the outlook is ok
but must know the inside

*Woman is fearsome but sorrowful creatures*
OKIE
So morning u got any guy in mind...like ur frenz who send us home???/ Keeeekkkeeke

Black Rose AKA Hei Mei Gui
Nope, i am not desperate wahahaaaaa

Conversation ends here as I can no longer tahan her 38-ness WAHAHAA...

Cheong Cheong Cheong..!!

These 2 days were pretty crazy for me.. been to 2 interviews, 2 working places, 1 club and countless trips on the MRT/Bus/LRT...

So, Thursday finally got to go interview @ Ritz, an big events company.. good pay, great challenges but will be BZ like hell.. irregular hours, heavy workload, tight schedules, late nights blah blah blah.. the boss shall give me a call on monday if I am selected, so i shall keep my fingers crossed... Tot I would hang ard in Orchard b4 heading to LC office.. Yup, did hang out though feeling bored at the end and settled at MOS burger for lunch.. at 12, regretted for making tat decision and tot i shd head home instead to change into more comfy clothings.. Hate the white shirt i had on and tot it is too formal for a temp assignment.. quickly finish up my lunch and head home since I only have to report for work by 2.. I managed to reach LC office at 2 yet was informed tat i am gg to CHANGI WAREHOUSE!! YAY! took cab and met up my ex-bosses, and colleagues.. so happi to see them and they certainly missed me.. Boss took up so much of my time tat i realised i was paid $9/hr for nothing in the first 2 hrs... kekez.. wanted me to go back working for him, promising clear job scope, greater opportunities, etc.. me no interest.. and even promised to invest/help if i am doing any biz.. me no interest either... well, finish up on my work and head home.. dinner and read my driving theory... end of day..

Friday - returned to warehouse for 2nd round of working, left at 11.30am.. took the super long journey bus to LC Office and kena paid another 9 bucks for nothing kekekez... passed on the stuff to Alan, spoken to Betsy for a while and left for an interview @ YMCA.. had lunch at Serangoon interchange, took train to Dhoby Ghaut.. Betsy commented tat my top was too casual.. even if I am not very interested in the job also shd be formal as a form of showing respect.. though its a Fri.. hehez.. even i agreed so.. so i decided to shop for a top at PS.. settled on this sleeveless knit top from GG5.. blew 40 bucks okie..!! it went rather well with my black pants, black bag and black heels.. and perfect for the HOT weather.. the interview lasted for 2 whole hrs.. the people were great and the place so-so.. quite dilapidated.. will be working in the education centre where everything is messy, so gotta tie up the loose ends lor.. be considering if the pay is good...

Thinking on the train back home which choice is better.. came to this conclusion.. shall take up the events job if i got a call on mon and if the pay is >3k.. then i will sell my soul to RitZ.. if no call, 85% will take up YMCA job (if selected and no other upcoming interviews..) YMCA could be a good choice as it is in a strategic location (Orchard = shopping), easy for me to get there (DG Stn - NE line - 20 mins nia), office hrs (regular), education line (always like to be into education lor) AND, they got a pool there!!! can swim laps after work and be just in time for dinner at home.. But i still preferred the events one lor.. shall see see....

Makan abit at home and fell asleep.. catching a wink for 2 whole hrs and almost dun feel like waking up.. ended up 15mins late for appointment with G-Cube gang with mother fighting over the toilet and my dilly dallying... stepped into O-Bar for the very first time before midnight.. KP and frens came to join.. a grp like 6/7 guys.. met Ivan and Aaron - the tutor i hated most WAHAHAA... fate came to play a part in this as I remembered remarking on the ATT hi-tea session that the tutor i hated most was aaron and lecturer goes to Brett Smith.. Ya ya.. as my G-cube members can see, aaron was interested in me lor, not gg to deny anything.. he was like standing behind me in the dance floor, holding my waist whenever possible, planting kisses on my cheek when seated, and even tried to steal a kiss on my lips (WTF - JERK) (btw, tried to means not successful) think i only behave like this in clubs.. if outside then i will plant a fist on his face kekekez.. in the end, he sent 3 ladies home, and blew abt 50 bucks i think.. by the time the cab reached my place is already 40+ including midnight surchage.. to his place in bedok will shoot 50 WAHAHAA...

Ok, shoot more Qs at me lor.. got interest in him ma?? to be frank, No.. he's ok to chat with la, but dun think will rush into things, as I've already rejected him on a dinner date for today.. whether a guy is rich or not doesnt matter to me.. I just want the feelings thingy.. think will hang out with him more often if he continues to stay interested ba.. but then my decision is, I wanna be single for a while and stabilize on my career first.. whats more, with tat stupid grin on his face, his lousy teaching and my complaint against him (oei, I did complain against him to the lecturer okie!) dunno if we can develop lor wahahaa... anyway, he is quite interesting la.. and shall be on my contact list for a while lor..

one more thing, KP seems sad.. well i know it must be because of me as his buddies have been very direct to me tis morning.. and tat stupid aaron mentioned some nonsense to him tat made him sadder i guess... haizz.. there is nothing wrong with kp la.. he's a super nice guy lor, BUT i dun think we have any chemistry and i dun wanna hurt him as i know i wont be the perfect one for him.. means i wont be a good gf to him as i wont love him enough to do tat... he deserves someone who will cherish him as he is too decent a person.. agreed..??!

Is life fair??

W-H-Y..? is it any good to ask too many W-H-Ys...?? Why is the sky blue? Why are the fields green?? Why do we need to eat, drink, breathe, shit?? Why are some people born rich, why are others born poor..? Why do some voluntarily give up something tat other desire for..? WHY....?? Just WHY..??

Its a gloomy day.. my close fren lost her 2-month-old foetus she wanted badly... I accompanied her almost the whole day.. I postponed a job interview so I can comfort her.. Remembering just 2 weeks ago, when she told me she's expecting, we rejoiced.. anticipating the birth of the new comer in Nov.. Now this.... kinda hard to accept.. we went to KK Clinic in AMK and the 3rd opinion is still the same -- the bb's heartbeat has stopped and is no longer growing, in other words, it is DEAD... kinda sad, right..? Arranged for the op tomolo and the hubby will acc her, while I continue my life, gg for interview then to work.. haiz.. saw this really young couple there, the gal seems 16 and the guy no more than 18... most prob for abortion.. dun think such young kids need to visit a gynae for no apparent reasons... can they exchange their situation.. how nice right..??

Nothing much to say now as this is all I wanna say..... tata.....

HOngKOng HOngKOng

Visited HK during 31 March to 3 Apr.. had lotsa fun with the gals and formed a new clan: The G-Cube

The Gong Clan

From left: Ah Gong, Ah Toot, Ah Dai, Ah Tze

Insomnia

Which is why I decided to do this, at 3.30am in the morning... Seems like I'm back to being an owl again... at one time, I returned to normal life, slept by midnight and wake at 7/8am.. that was when i was temping at HF/Avnet.. after HK, everything went back to abnormal stage... decided to recap on happenings for past 2 days.......................

Saturday............ leilong, garang guni Day.. had such fun with G-Cube members selling used stuff... reached there at 4.30pm with Louise and we started rock and roll almost immediately... the maids, aunties, ah-mahs, ah-sohs and xiao-jies all "attacked" us even before our goods were laid.... so scary.. mei was like so "Zha Dao"... haha.. that funny expression on her face.. Blurry was enjoying as the only veteran amongst us... everything was getting blurred and i cant remember which item was sold to who... i can only recognize $$$.... almost all my shoes were sold.. left one pair nia.. the glittery heels which i wore for kor's wedding 3 yrs ago... the white slip-ons, pink slippers, pink heels, black short heels, grey heels, white heels, strap heels, white flats, sharp tip were all snapped up.... some "memorable" tops were sold too... those which have been with me thru all the wind wind rain rain... they were all gone.. somehow felt a sense of lost over them.. nonetheless bo bian lar~!! several bags were sold too.. the 2 caps, sunglasses, some books, etc.. only managed to sell one pair of earrings *boo boo* dinner was mac filet o fish meal... overall takings was 216.. i am rather glad for this amt.... we left at 10.30pm while blurry left an hr earlier... luckily never get "eye needle" as we saw so many "Zha Dan" and also tat *unoperated ah-gua* WAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAA..................

Sunday............ insomnia, so slept at 4+.. wake up at 2+... heavy sleeper? No actually, my room was so damn noisy tat i kena woken up a few times since 7am... re-sleeping added to the tiredness and overall shui mian... breakfast was taken at 3pm.. followed by church-ing.. paying respects to grandma's 6th anniversary... how time flies... missed her dearly.. at the collumbarium, we saw many tablets... some departed at a ripe old age, some prematurely and some came and gone on the same day.. rather saddening.. some people fought in vain for a chance to live while others voluntarily take their own lives... the place was cool and peaceful.. i'm sure grandma likes it... had a talk with anna aunty, who's almost divorced with my 4th uncle.. another family tragedy.. can see my aunty is really suffering, yet feeling very strong and determined to raise up her 2 kids on her own... still struggling with the money, housing, meals, transport, schooling, blah blah blah issues... my heart went all out to them, esp my cousin, christina, the older kid... 11 this yr and i observed a strange quietness in her that i have never seen before.. she wasnt like tat in the past.. they lived just across the block to my old hougang residence a yr before we shifted....... i am rather close to this aunty and her kids.. christina used to be a really spoilt, noisy, and da-xiao-jie kinda gal.. sometimes i dislike her yet understood that she is still young... but she changed so much.. so unlike her.. now, she just hide from others and talked so much less.. perhaps she has seen too much of the violence taken place in her family.. perhaps she has been scared by her own dad... i think she is totally hurt in this broken family.. rather saddening.. it just made me reflect and think that i am so damn fortunate.. my mum still managed to keep the family together after all those bloody shit tat happened in the past.. unlike some broken mirror that are impossible to mend... i hope to provide whatever i could for them when i am back to financially independent status... in the mean time, I could only pray for the goodness of them...

Dead and alive

I was dead for 3 hours................................ A sudden migraine relapse occurred after that cold shampoo...............

Was at Garden cafe having hi-tea with my 2 cousins and 2 aunties... the food not bad, though just simple fare... headed to AMK for "hair steaming" as the aunties call it... we call it "hair treatment".... that was where i kena the migraine attack... my hair was washed cold twice and i think i just cant tahan it... my eyes started to blur and the left forehead pounded.. it later spreaded to the left eye and left side of the nose... my left eye began to water and i felt nausea... was supposed to go ACTORS with mei but i had to fly kite.... welcome to CciCci AirwayZzzz.....

Cant wait to get home quick on the cab.. i held a plastic bag in case i puke.... din puke in the end... once reached home, i just threw my bag aside and lie DEAD on the bed.. without removing my contact lenses, without removing makeup and without changing... just DEAD for 3 hrs.... head still pounding and mother screaming when i din answer the locked bedroom door...

I woke up to bathe at 11pm, feeling better but still hurts a little when i exert force over there... must really rest well for tomolo's leilong sale... its VERY IMPORTANT to us and I dun wanna miss it... DEAD OR ALIVE, I MUST BE THERE.......... GPC spirit................

A Walk to Remember................

I cried again......................... now I believe women are made of water.................. we cried so easily............ over the slightest things.................. over everything......................

2nd time I watched "A walk to remember" and 2nd time to cry over the show... its so touching... imagine someone could love someone in this way... perhaps it could only happen in films.. or perhaps 50 years ago there might be cases like that....??? I bot the novel in 2002, where i was about to board a flight alone to Taipei at Changi Airport........ I was always alone on flights till recently, when I took flights to/fro Langkawi and to/fro HK................. I was afraid I'll get bored on the plane so bot a new book to read on the journey...... who knows, the book turned out to be more boring than staring out at the window.. HAHA... ya, it was really slow and *yawns* at the beginning... i stopped reading the book till weeks later.. when i picked up the book again after i returned to singapore.... i started all over again and determined to finish it in order not to waste my 17 bucks... who knows, i fell in love with this book and it actually made me cried at the end.... imagine, a book that has the power to make one cry......... i loan the book to JK and he was moved as well.... this is part of our history ^_^ ................... and so i bot the video 2 yrs back when i saw the vcd lying in some stores (cant rem) and i dun even rem seeing it on theaters.. perhaps i was too busy at that moment... as i can rem, i dun even got enough time to zzz in 2003 and 2004..... ya, it was really touching.... and i really liked it.... i mean, i love movies, esp such shows which could move me :)

well well... after nua-ing at home for 2 days i finally went out to see the sun today... went to this so-called talent agent in singapore shopping centre just to waste 30 mins of my precious time... last sat as the ATTs were passing by orchard, this fellow dropped me a card.. a lady called me on wed and told me to register at their agency 11am the next morning... well, i was half an hr late.. the process was like filling up a form, then this mandarin-speaking aunty led me to a room, praised me for being pretty, having good complexion/figure.... etc etc etc.. (of course i know la.. no need to sweet talk me kekez) then proceeded on telling me their biz, their clients, what kind of assignments i would accept, can i accept sexy poses, etc etc... well, the ZHONG DIAN is............. she just wanna me to take a series of makeover photos as my personal portfolio so that she can send it to the so-called clients to secure assignments.. MONEY showed up on her forehead... the bloody package costs 368!! think i DUMB meh..??! of course i refused, so she counter-offer with a cheaper package 168... no way man.... once i have to take out cash is a strict NO-NO.......... i rejected and she saw no pt to continue, she turned hostile immediately and saw me to the door, half smiling and asking if any of my time is wasted... of course wasted my saliva talking to a money-faced aunty lar~!! WALAU!!!!! Well, no mood was spoilt watsover.. at least i wont accept namecards from some bloody talent agency on the streets again... the day ended well with LouiSe accompanying me for my desired BK salad meal, window shop shop and movie "Be Cool"... we split before 7 as i was gg home for dinner and she meeting ah-zhen at cine......

No aerobics today (i did for 2 days consecutively) and no masks as well......... used the massage machines (my mother has additional body wellness gadgets!!! just discover this tummy trimmer...!!! good for the lazy bums.... ) ate the nasi lemak she prepared (which i dun feel like eating) drank kopi and watched tv.... showered and continued with american idol results show and this nadia kena voted out.... YAY! my choice was right...!! i still like scott very much but he seemed to get out of the show very soon as for 2 weeks consecutively, he was at the bottom 3....... i cant decide anwar, constantine or carrie would be the next idol..... i think constantine stands a good chance...

Gotta orrrrrrh-orrrrrrrh liao lor.... tata...........

BluEs

Wondering why am I having these blues......... No, not PMS........ just vexed.. feeling out of place... feeling rot...... feeling faint.......I dunno wat to do with my life......... it seems so long, but so aimless....... no goals to meet, no targets to hit......... i am lost......... alone in a jungle........

Everything's gonna be alright...

Cheer up.. it'll be okay soon.................................................................

Lately

Lazy to blog lately and also server kept going DOWN.. lost a long blog tat day and made me :( so i decide not to rewrite it again.. well, its abt the HK trip la.. time flies so quickly and we're already back for a week liao.. so much memories in this trip and I have left my heart at HK.. nothing special this week except continuing my job hunting, going for an interview as an exhibition sales executive.. visiting cristofori and ms lim expressed wishes of me going back to assist her.. went for the musical "The Sound of Music" which is a really FANTASTIC show.. my art senses are back again.. I feel that afterall, music and the arts is still my FIRST LOVE.. and recently I kept thinking on whether I shd go back to cms.. as I can be nearer to music and continue from what I left off.. working on my music adventure, my piano workshops and my concerts etc.. I am so confused :(

Kicked off the ATT (aspiring tai-tais) meeting today.. had dim sum buffet at Goodwood Park hotel.. the food not very fantastic yet I took it as an experience for us.. had a great time :) But i am damn f**ked-up.. first forgot the cammie, then forgot their presents.. the most impt thingys.. haizzz... nonethless, chris made up for the forgotten cammie and the gals dun mind my forgotten presents... kekekez.. everyone blew money into something except me, as I have the least (actually none) spending power among us.. I am glad as I already blew 22 bucks into the meal.. After everyone has parted, I walked my way to PS, where I took the train back home.. On the way, I did my usual self-reflections and thinking of some good and bad things.. sometimes, I wonder why.. I still fill my brains with rubbish and poor imaginations.. however, I am now able to brush them off quickly..

Been doing different masks everyday since last sunday and felt my skin feeling smoother lately.. cannot lose the momentum and must keep doing it and make my skin even smoother... one day, a mosquito might slide down my cheeks.. who knows right..??? kekekekz... Life's so happy when I reviewed those HK pix with sis just now.. took along time to review those 400+++ pix and every pic brought back some fun and laughter.. so happy :) We hope to go again next yr so we can visit Disney Land...!! You wanna go..??!!! ^_^ Just finished watching the second disc of "Coyote Ugly".. second time watching it and its a really great show.. which I liked.. one the best I've watched bah.. though its a cheong disc and the scenes are blurry yet I still love watching it.. it made me think of JK hahaha... I wonder why..??! maybe I miss him too much liao.. but then, thinking of him brought back happy memories cuz no matter what, he had left some good impressions for me.. his handsome features and his faaarneee expressions.. I still remembered tat time when I caught him sniffing my hair.. those days we went for movies, coffee chats and also tat faithful day when he held my hand in the taxi.. so innocent, so cute and so JK.. haha.. then shouldnt be calling him JK what.. must change to CG (Cute Guy)... or FG (Funny Guy)..??? anyway.. he will have some place in my heart no matter what :)

Refreshed and Rejuvenated :)

2nd day back from HKG.. had lotsa fun, visited many places, shopped alot, ate alot and played alot.. alot of things to talk abt the HK trip.. alot of pix, alot of stories and alot of jokes... esp the Kan-ah-kan-ah.. man-man-kan-ah...

Heard abt the pope's death on the very night we were back.. went to church for the memorial mass yest at 8pm.. lotsa people were there and there was hardly even place to stand.. went to avnet warehouse in the afternoon to pass ollie some lao po bing and a gift.. both bosses were not ard.. after that went to meet up lilian and she told me a piece of good news... she has a baby liao ^_^ abt 6/7 weeks old.. met up ms lim.. yest was her bday and i gave her a box of kueh kekez.. she mentioned the interest of me gg back to help her.. i am into serious thinking on that.. she might contact me soon.. also another temp lobang from betsy.. think i am really so hotly sought-after wahhaaaa....