I'm Back!

Missed out blogging for an entire week.. first time sia.. my life's been pretty haywired lately.. wat am I doing at 5am in the morning..?? I guess months ago, I would be sleeping and the alarm clock would beep punctually at 7am to go to work.. been to a ktv session with my new hangouts hours ago.. well, i dun enjoy it, I must say.. I love singing so much tat I would put in my best and concentrate in every piece of music I sing.. therefore, I demand appreciation and attention.. however, the scene was like a market place, its like fighting to make ur singing/talking voice be heard in that noisy little cramped room.. I shd hangout in ktvs with the correct gang instead.. and so far, my best kboxing gang members are fernie, lian-jie and terence.. we listen when others sing, we appreciate and we learn from one another.. this is what we call serious singing and not crappy singing.. today's experience is just a relaxation to get away from my usual singing, yet I cant relax.. I still have to give in my best, and make my voice pleasant in every song I sing.. this is ME..

Happy Lunar New Year~! Gong Xi Fa Cai~!! Last Monday was spent shopping~! Last min got a $100 Isetan voucher being belated bday gift from my avnet gang.. spent them all in Isetan @ Shaw House and paid an additional $9.30 for 2 tops, a skirt and a clutch.. Spent some $ in chinatown for my jewellery making materials too.. Tuesday was new yr eve, met up meimei at noon for her shoe hunting at xodus PS.. bot a pair of cute pumps at less than $40 with my 15% discount voucher.. Mum cook reunion lunch while dinner was eaten at auntie's hse.. at nite, we dress in all red to gamble wahaha.. just mum, sis and me.. I lost abt $1.00+, actually cant remember if I have lost or won.. Maybe have won but I dunno.. Wed, first day of CNY, caixia came for hse visit, went to auntie's place in the afternoon then at nite, relax into another gambling session tog with sis's bf, this time won abt $1.80.. AL called and i missed it while gambling.. abit shitty feel as I think I really miss him lor, dun deny leh.. Thu, CNY 2nd day.. went to ah-gong's place, BORED, real BORED.. met up my relatives and cousins.. not many babies to see this year, all are kept at their homes.. sianz.. went home pretty early to work on my jewellery.. at nite, gamble again and lost big time.. abt 13 bucks went down to drain.. haizz.. poor luck..

Friday, 3rd day liao.. wakey wakey up to gamble with the same gang and lost abt another 8 bucks.. kp and cobin came for hse visit and we pack up to go cheong.. first stop for visit to kp's hse, then pick up caixia, then to white sands to fetch chris.. we hit double O and david was waiting outside for us.. danced and drank.. and I was really drunk this time.. ya, became a merlion for the first time.. thrown up in newton circus.. dun care people staring and the onlookers, I just puke.. so, kp took care of me.. ya.. touched..?? to be frank, not really lor, i think any frens would take care of drunk frens.. went up to cobin's place in a group.. still hangover till 8+ b4 finally wake up for a quick french toast and go home.. at home, slept for almost the entire day.. wake up at 1pm, eat another french toast and Zzzz again till 5+.. almost couldnt eat anything yet forced myself to go dinner with mum at foodcourt.. couldnt finish the food for sure.. Overall Evaluation of cheong-nite: FUN but not as FUN as the previous time with our 2 meimeis.. danced with a few guys but they appear to me as super young and horny bunch of b*stards.. hack care them.. well, i can say tat i like dancing.. nvr tot that i would like dancing or even dare to dance and break free from my used-to-be-conventional tots.. and i think i can dance, non stop for a long time w/o feeling tired.. and i can follow the rhythm and have my own style in dancing.. Well, I can say that generally, Singaporeans CANT dance.. i can see on the dance floor what a ton of BAD/POOR dancers doubleO has attracted.. these people cant even follow the rhythm and beats and often you see their body language getting uncoordinated and unsynchronised with the music.. wat a SHAME.. their way of dancing is simply WEIRD in my sense.. i just feel tat, if you CANT dance, then dun make loud movements tat made me LAUGH.. WAHAHAHAAAA.....

Sunday, poor appetite.. been working on my online jewellery store whole day.. OH YEA! its ready sia!!! http://groups.msn.com/wEnLoDy/shoebox.msnw still missed out on the product catalog, receipt book and the 30-day free repair service promise.. gotta do some book keeping as well.. so far, have done up the entire product listing, and material cost.. just need to tie up the loose ends.. ya, so went lianjie's place b4 ktv with new hangouts but din enjoy myself.. damage is 30bucks.. fernie to the rescue, we went supper at 401 then my place for a chat.. bloody shit, kena a summon.. but we will share no matter what.. must work hard to sell more jewellery and earn tat money back..

so now, my plan is get a real job while doing my jewellery thingy as part time to generate extra cash.. needa learn driving and pay off the debts owed to my mother.. wanna go travelling as well.. now just learn to live my life the easy way.. getting new inspirations and adjusting my mood for new stuff..

so go back to tat merlion nite topic.. i babbled in the car tat i STILL miss and love AL and VERY MUCH.. one thing ivan adviced me is tat, if i cant forget then dun try to forget cuz tat will make me even more miserable.. just let it stay there and time will help to ease and lessen the pain tats all.. I still wanna stay in touch with him cuz i know i still care for him and just wish to know tat he's alright.. I will lessen tat out sooner or later i hope.. I was still conscious tat nite though tat din stop me from being uncontrolled on my feelings.. well, I still can make out what I was saying and everything everyone else said are still ringing in my ears.. it was nonethless, also a signal to kp to stop trying his luck on me.. we are just not suitable, I am very clear on tat.. there is no substitutes for AL and if i were to accept someone new, it would be the time when I have recovered and not substituting for lost love..

Tats it for today.. told a very long story and its time to get back to my CreActionZ Jewellery.. remember the name YOY~! and help to recommend more biz :P