When will sunny days ever come again? =(

I din get a tan yest.. Rainy day and gloomy mood, with dark clouds hovered above me again :( I am feeling moody again.. was supposed to be a happy day yest but somehow, it got ruined by my poor mood.. chris noticed it.. I am pretty sorry to the gals, frankly speaking, i really like them very much, but somehow, something else got the better of me.. why am i worrying about things again? din i tell myself over and over again, not to worry about money, not to worry about the future? just live my life happily and make each day counts.. something is wrong somewhere.. kept receiving msgs from those people i dun wish to hear from, and they bothered me.. I really cant find out whats the problem with me.. why am i dwelling on things of the past? why wont they let me go? why did the ghosts of the past kept haunting me? when will they ever let me off? shopping and splurging only neutralize the feeling momentarily, the nostalgic feeling just came back when it likes...