I am Not a LaZY BonE~!!

Monday 31 Jan 2005
Countdown: 9 days to CNY
Everyday is so meaningless.. everyday feels like a drag.. Yes, I do enjoy my break, but without a motive in life is horrible :( Well, today I went to Tampines for a movie alone.. wondering when can i have company for a movie..?? Meet the Fockers was a bore for me.. i tot i am supposed to enjoy this kind of movie but surprisingly, it doesnt interest me.. spent several hrs in TM with a confused mind.. I guess I am being harsh on myself again.. like what Mira told me.. wondering why its so hard for me to relax.. i am stupid, really foolish..

The whole of yesterday was almost spent at home.. except went compass pt with sis&bf, then tampines to pick up mother.. had bk for dinner.. tats abt all.. life's such a bore..

The First Week of Unemployment

Checked out from chalet only on Wed... spent some time clearing up the aftermath.. my room was in a MESS and needa take care of those presents i received.. so the perfumes are into my glass showcase, the jewellery boxes replaced the exisiting (old) ones, the clothes folded and hid in the wardrobe, and the rest just went to appropriate places they should be... hadnt been sleeping well so I slept for awhile and by today had forgotten what I did on wed...

On Thur, I went out to Orchard to collect our makeover pics which fernie and i took the other day.. not bad la, quite satisfied with the end result.. Did some window shopping.. bought things? Ya, cant resist the M)phosis top.. actually there were 2 pcs I wanted to buy on impulse, yet considering that I am out of a job now, so I just chose one, yet I really like the other too.. If I have a bf, he must pay for the other piece.. kekez.. Also bot something from watsons.. at nite was at compass point having dinner with the usual people, i.e. mum, sis and her bf.. had a tummy upset again but somehow the after-dinner Andersen's ice-cream cured it.. hehez.. bot a surf shorts at metro for 13 bucks..

Fri, went TPY for breakfast with ah ka.. next stop to whampoa market visiting and helping her florist fren.. agreed to help her promote flowers for v-day.. the place was hot & stuff.. we finally left at 3+.. i went metro 20% storewide sale alone.. bot 2 triumph bras and my clinque supplies.. spent almost 200 so better start saving up.. at nite was rotting at home, online, watch american idols, massaging my feet and designing my jewellery.. came up with a few designs which mother really like.. haha, she will become my first customer.. yet i confuse her with so many tempting designs that she cant decide which one she wants..

Sat, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEI~!! YAY~~!! Finally left the age 10+ catagory and entered the 20-and-above league.. welcome to my league..!!! rotting at home the day away, did some jewellery designing, read up my basic theory book, listening to some music and chatting online.. what a way to waste the day away..!

Crazy tots filled up my mind lately.. maybe i am too free and starting to run my tots wild again.. I am afraid I will become a lazy bum.. nothing better to do everyday.. i am afraid my brains will die.. if i let them remain rusty for too long, they might not work again.. kekekez.. so i better shop more, exercise more, so they will not die on me so easily.. hmm.. ya sometimes i still think of him, i mean everytime, really.. unless there's something serious to do at a particular moment which would keep my mind away from him for awhile.. e.g. jewellery making, shopping etc.. however it still comes back after tat.. i believe i belong to the studious type.. i needa find a job which i enjoy doing, know more people, only then i can put him away from my mind for good..

My BiRtHdAy BaSH 2005

Pictures say a thousand words, since I am lazy to reiterate what happened during the chalet period 23-26Jan.. I shall use whatever evidence i have available :)


Making my birthday wish...
This yr having my bday celebrated at Aloha Loyang.. I arranged a BBQ party, inviting my family, some relatives, sec sch classmates, Diploma mates, Uni mates, colleagues and other frens.. More than 30 people were there though some fly aeroplanes, yet i had a great time, catching up with people I havent met for a while :)



My bday cake ~ Breadtalk green tea cake - compliments from my 2 aunties


Old Frens and New Frens Gathering.. well, they made frens :)
On the left is Rachale who is the first person I knew in IBMEC, next ME, on my left is Phebe, also another of my IBMEC classmates, then Jacqueline, whom I know from work, she works in UPS..


GPC Members ~ Needa explain further..???
Left: Chocolate, SamSam, Mira Softdrink and Carrie (Chong -- the Radio DJ..?? Issit..??)


This is Allis, my only net fren in the gang, that's the 3rd time I met her.. well, she's the very ONZ type who will make a great fren :)


My Ex-Avnet colleagues: Wee with the red jerset, bringing along his wife, Ee Ee and son, Glen.. Simin in the middle, who temped and covered me during my exam period in May/June last yr.. and Olivia on the right, My xcb colleagues whom we have endless things to talk and endless crapping in office.. Yup, will be missing these people...!!!


The UWA gang ~ Left: Jamie, Tracy (my mama) Chris and David


The Xinmin Gang ~ Left: Ah Liang, Caixia (Behind), Kok Peng, Cobin and Ker Ching~!


They made quick frens :)
Simin found Ah Liang familiar and so they are both from NTU, it turned out that Simin knows Ah Liang's younger sis


A Grand reunion of UWA Gang -- Addition of Papa (Chengwu-- behind mama) and Teo on the right.. and Chris is advertising for Yeo's.. the low budget kinda advert, well u know...... blah blah blah....


My dear relatives, aunties and cousins.... :)


Family :) Bro, sis-in-law, mother and father =)


Look at the SpReaD!!


My aunties and cousin enjoy playing cards kekekez


When everyone left, these people remained, aside from kaka who accompanied me for the nite... she went to bed early while we stayed up to talk and drink.. well, we kan diao half a bottle of 40% alcohol content vodka vanilla and catch up despite the years we did not meet.. These people I have known for almost half of my life.. Kok Peng sat beside me in Sec 1 while I was classmate with Cobin in Sec 2.. Caixia was from a different class but she was a secret admirer of my bro (ops!) and somehow always find chances to come to my hse.. nevertheless, we remained good frens for many yrs and she would come to my hse on the first day of CNY without fail..


Ex colleagues Joanne and Josephone (Both Ah Jos) came to pei me.. I had diarrhoea the whole day :( Look how sickly I am =(


The grill was certainly much better on the second day :) Tats why I ate so much and spent so much time in the toilet.. kekez


The Food People -- Jo and Husband and little Joanne :)


They continue mahjong at nite.. while I chit chat with fern fern...


Some candid shots we took.. this is me in eerie costume ~_~


Jo - All legs and no Face


I was all alone on the 3rd day with everyone else leaving by 8am.. so I went for a quick walk at the beach, took some shots.. like esp the tree's shadow.. quickly move on to the pool in case there's another tsunami.. *ops~*


Pool view ~ I was swimming and tanning.. and Yes! I got a TAN!!! :)
btw, i had on my black bikini :)


I really like this shot with the blue sky and taken under the beach umbrella :)


This is kaka who accompanied me for the 3rd nite together with fernie :)
However she lost $$ while playing tong xiao mahjong with the du guis-- kok peng, cobin and tan chee keong+ his ah lian gf.. (TCK: dunno him well in sec sch but heard of and know his face, so now he's selling insurance and became a smokey ah beng.. KaoZzzz..)


While the rest are mahjonging, fernie and i were drinking and as usual, our girlie chat in the aircon room.. this is her best advert for absolut vanilla, the vanilla-flavoured vodka.. look at how red her face is.. kekeez


the loads of presents i received.. not forgetting 3 ang baos :)
Highlight: VC came to deliver a present on 23rd.. when almost everyone's gone.. he came specially to deliver the present and left.. so the surprise is a ferragamo perfum.. kekekez

HaPpY BiRtHDaY To ME~!!

Happy Birthday to Wendy~...
Happy Birthday to Wendy~...
Happy Birthday to Wendy~...
Happy Birthday to Wendy~...!!!

Zhu wo shen ri kuai le~!!

My 25th Birthday will be the grandest bash in my entire life so far.. it will be held in a chalet, with a BBQ party and inviting lotsa people.. I will have 4 days to enjoy this yr.. chalet will check in on sunday 3.30pm and check out by 10.30am on wednesday.. will update update when i come home on wednesday!!

..:: Temp0rary AsSignment AdvertiSement ::..

BBQ CHEFS NEEDED!!
on 23rd Jan 2004 (Sunday) at Aloha Loyang 5.30PM

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Requirements:

Can start a fire for BBQ, BBQ food, can tell whether the meat is cooked or not, and other ad hoc duties..

No Experience required but preferably Junior cooks working in home kitchens..

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Remuneration Package:

Non-monetary ~ You may help yourself to the wide spread of food and beverages available.. You will also get to enjoy the fun and laughter shared among the temp chefs..

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Kindly send your resume or arrange a verbal interview with the boss: wEnDy LeO blueberry@pacific.net.sg / 1800-BBQChef

Come Early to C00k~!~!~!

..:: The Last Week in Avnet ::..

Saturday 22 Jan 2005
Tiring day.. morning bkf at punggol plaza.. marketing for BBQ FOOD supplies *kaoZzz not easy to hold BBQ hor* dunno how many rounds of BBQ shopping liao -_- *broke* Home, cut meat, marinate, do this do that *tired*.. haizz.. nails and fingers hurting from those preparation.. rushed to NTUC for some more supplies procurement, like tat another 40 bucks gone.. today alone abt 100+ -_- total spent so far 250+, tomolo still got to pay chalet expenses, satay otah etc etc etc.. *broke broke broke* at 4pm, zoomed to pick up sis' bf at TPY, head to fu lu shou bldg for crystal shopping, carpark crowded, sis gg to blow her top *again*, thankfully her bf is ard and somehow feels tat he managed to subdue her and keep her hot temper down.. *terrific guy as a bf lorz* zoomed zoomed to golden mile for dinner and see sis&bf off to coach gg to genting.. zoomed home!! still rounds of preparation and packing up for tomolo.. damn tired.. =_=

HE sms me at 6pm wishing me a happy birthday, wrong date yet i thanked him.. it stopped there.. saporo stayed up till midnight to wish me, someone sms me too.. tat someone was someone HE and i named ET last time.. somehow, HE won me over ET tat time.. guess i hurt ET badly.. i nvr keep his phone# and replied asking him who r u *in a nice manner lar~!* his responses were rather *blah blah blah..* he mentioned he will still rem for next yr.. WATEVER~! I think i am such a STONE, i dun feel moved.. i kinda feel tat no matter how many yrs he waited i will still not take a 2nd look at him.. i dunno why i feel this way.. those who treat me in a special way *such as ivan, saporo, ET etc* i dun take a second look or even consider to start a r/s.. yet i fell deeply for those who hack care me, like JK and HIM.. i can say tat HE hurt me badly.. i dun even want to think abt starting a r/s now.. I know alot of guys care for me and will def want me if i want them.. but then i dun play with feelings, this is my principle in life, and i am sticking FIRMLY to it..

Friday 21 Jan 2005
First day of unemployment.. went kbox with lian and terrence for a prelude to our bday celebration.. head to PS KFC for "afternoon hi-tea".. they wanted me to choose my bday present but i dun like to waste people's $$ or demand for things I like.. so many people told me they found it hard to find me a suitable bday gift.. kept asking me wat i need/lack.. i really dunno.. i think i am satisfied with everything i have now.. so i demand nothing.. perhaps lacking a happy job and a caring bf.. who can buy me tat? *kekez*.. then they took me to fu lu shou bldg wanting to get me a suitable crystal *those tat they say can have magical power if u wear correctly* but b4 that gotta take a kinda pic that will reflect ur current "spiritual state".. confused me.. well nvm.. so it says tat my gastric is poor, my arms r tired and my legs are weak.. i am a happy person *issit??* i am a fun-loving and innocent child at heart, i have many friends *quite true* and i am a pleasure to be around.. my current situation is abit awkward, will be pretty stressed at the current moment but my future looks bright and cheery.. it rounds off by saying i can wear a green cystal chain or a pink crystal bracelet on the right wrist.. couldnt find a suitable crystal, *all too EX lar~! dun want to waste their $$* we were at tat area for 2-3 hrs and finally settled on a 7-eye tian zhu which cost only $12.. but i like it sia~!! Lian is abit upset as she couldnt get me a good crystal but happy when i told her i really like the tian zhu! nevertheless, they bot me dinner at this little thai restaurant Tinun in Bugis Junction.. it was YUMMY!! the day din end there, sis&bf, dad&mum were at PS picking up kaka afterwork.. i called them and they happen to be leaving PS so dad wanted sis to make a detour to pick me up :) *blissful* 4 people crammed at the backseat but happi :) we went up to kaka's place, deliver the oto foot massager to da-gu-ma and stayed ard for a while.. later hit home to Zzzzz...

Thursday 20 Jan 2005


This was taken at the front door where we can see the company's logo~! Actually there's something wrong with the logo, see if you can spot it..!!! :P

This is Olivia (Ollie).. Ms Abalone.. kekez.. or SBJ (Singapore Born Japanese) Full of crapZ and RuBBish in the office, but always makes me laugh... we are in fact rather close as there used to be only 2 gals in the office as compared to 20 over guys.. somehow, we grew up together these 2 yrs.. we had so much fun and laughter and we always help each other.. i will certainly miss Ollie.. :(

Shirley ~ the shipping coordinator.. married young and now her elder son is already in Sec 2.. cant tell right? she's only 32 yrs old..! Sweet lady with a motherly touch..

This is Wee, the 38-yr-old Operations Executive.. Full of complaints but rather close to me.. behaves like a 25-yr-old rather than his actual age.. married with a cute 4-yr-old boy.. my lunch kaki.. sms me the most out of the remaining colleagues.. i guess he will miss me alot as I believe I'm the closest to him than other colleagues.. kekez..

A photo with the GUYS ~ From left: CS Teo, the Shipping Executive cum "papa", always so fatherly and gentle.. He's the Mr Nice-Guy type.. married with a pair of 7-yr-old twins (long fei tai).. beside me is CW Ong, from Ipoh, one yr younger than me.. quite a nice boy but sometimes abit chatty and cheeky.. but i like his sunniness.. next is Kenneth cum "Professor".. always fight with me over the copier and shares lotsa jokes with me about the "Hospital" scene we created.. kekez.. I am the Director (Yuan Zhang) while he is in charge of Inner injuries and nutrition, Ong is the plastic surgeon, Teo is the Dentist, Shirley is Pediatrician, Olivia is Head of Mental Illness, Wee is in charge of Cancer Department while Albert is the Gynaecologist.. WAHAHA.. in actual fact, Ong and Kenneth works in shipping department..

Meet the group of doctors ~ Dr Kenneth Tan (Nutritionist cum inner problems), Dr Shirley Oh (Pediatry), Dr Olivia Lee (Mental illness), Dr Wendy Leo (Director), Dr CS Teo (Dentistry), and Dr Albert Lim (Gynaecology) - missing out from the pic is Dr LC Wee (Cancer Dept) and Dr CW Ong (Plastic Surgery)
(Btw, Albert is the operations manager who is gentle and kind, tats why he must be in charge of gynaecology)

Me in my "Doctor's" suit taken at the "hospital office" ~ Look how cool i am :)

This is the last day in Avnet.. what's the feeling like? I feel NOTHING.. I am not sure now, maybe I will know later.. freaking busy day till the last min.. received a call from ollie even b4 i reach office.. small thing abt water supply nia boss also must make noise ~_~ It din go so well.. the load was rather high all of a sudden.. so many email enquries, so many responses to make.. boss R wants to do freight project, asia operation meeting with over 20 people here, buy snacks, make coffee/tea.. walau!! did so many things today that everything now became a blur.. but then had a very nice lunch with my 6 colleagues in fish&co.. of coz they buy me lor.. kekez.. somehow or rather felt tat vincent purposely dropped by at lunchtime asking me to lunch, yet was turned down cuz of my prior arrangement with the "doctors gang" (kekez, stories abt this gang will come later!!) hmm.. abit wasted sia as i can feast on the food as well as on my eyes at this handsome guy ^_^ guess i will miss all of them lor, esp our laughters in the office.. still a blur after lunch, freakingly busy.. yet gotten a surprise from my doctors gang -- they bot me a cake!! sang me a birthday song in the pantry *so touched!!* made several calls to my vendors, well, they sounded upset or issit a formality..??! HR mgr replied to my farewell msg asking me to give her a call if i need a job :) received several replies from others too.. vice president from HK gave me a namecard.. pat on the shoulders by HK project mgr, kitty, Simens consultant, Jean and Lisa.. and many others who are here for the meeting..!! bot the warehouse guys coffee and snacks for $30.. it is a hard day for everyone, including me.. well, my last day is full of memories.. very busy memories, good and bad memories.. pissed off yet surprised.. contradictory memories.. haizz guess i am feeling sleeply and is starting to talk nonsense.. finally able to leave b4 6, took cab with florence to tpy, delivered my 2nd hand books to grace and earned 76 bucks! travelled home and had dinner with sis&bf + mum at punggol plaza then to bro's hse to watch american idols.. tiring day, now blogging and waiting for fernie to come my hse..

Wednesday 19 Jan 2005
Countdown: 1 more day ~ YAY!!
Super late today.. haha, already given up hope.. Boss' attitude was fine today.. been hitting flies~~~.. packed up my stuff into 2 large bags!! dropped those things at home and met up meimei.. had dinner at compass point and a shopping spree at metro!! went home with a bikini bra top, a swim bottom and a glass.. okie, will save up alright~! HaiZzz.. so fast tomolo the final day liao.. been waiting for this day to come, yet when it comes, i am filled with a sense of uneasiness and a funny feeling.. i wont be sitting in that seat again, i wont be calling tat computer mine liao, i wont be moving ard the warehouse freely like a KL kia.. no more jokes with colleagues, no more cramping into teo's car for lunch, no more staff badge, no more salary.. these are what i wanted isnt it..?? having second thoughts..?? not really.. i am reminding myself constantly tat there will be a better tomolo.. who knows what will happen?? perhaps i'll be even happier outside than in avnet.. LISTEN UP! THE OUTSIDE WORLD!! WENDY IS COMING....!! WOHAHAHAHAHAHHAAAA....~!~!~!!~!!!

Tuesday 18 Jan 2005
Countdown: 2 Days
Late as usual though I reminded myself over and over again to reach earlier.. Still totally sickened by Boss' attitude.. nvm, 2 more days to ORD.. bored in office.. had lunch at Tampines Mart.. The DC Mgr from Taiwan dropped by.. heard his voice b4 but first time seeing him in person.. he sounded handsome yet in fact is half bald.. wahahhaaa.. not forgetting tat he brought us snacks from Taiwan.. Pineapple and yam.. yum yum~! Nothing special happened today maybe except having 4 persons cramped at the back seat in Teo's car for lunch.. Ong joined us today.. he's my xiao di-di.. think he's gonna miss me after I'm gone.. kept sticking to me during lunch.. poor boy.. had dinner at the little thai-chinese restaurant opp our block.. then a shopping spree in bbq, spent 101bucks into my bbq items.. a feeling of broke-ness.. wahahaa.. but hope everyone will enjoy it~!!

Monday 17 Jan 2005
Countdown: 3 Days
Usual day in the office, late again *used to it liao*, pissed off by boss over his expressions in emails, his harsh tone and his commanding me like a dog.. HUMP!! yet will not let it affect my ORD mood :) Had lunch at TM Mac ~ tried the new black pepper beef burger and twister fries.. *Yummy*.. bot something in Isetan and realised I did not have any cash! Luckily still had a POSB Credit Card complimentary of kor.. Thanks to kor ~ But must draw cash to pay him.. Met Vincent near knockoff.. he left earlier than me as I went upstairs to pack my stuff.. yet met him driving by while I was at the traffic light.. it began to rain halfway *kAoZzz*.. and he made a U-turn, and U-turn again to pick me up.. *Wah, so touched*.. He was residing nearby but he drove me all the way back to Sengkang.. *touched 100%*..

Sis tabao my fav chk rice from Bishan and we ate it hungrily.. Ivan came again to fix up my computer and copied 6GB of music into my pc.. *wahahhaaa* 99% are cheeeena songs and able to find some that I like.. installed LimeWire for me as well :) This is what we called buddies sia~! At 9.30pm did the aerobics then proceed to shower.. Spoke to Saporo on the phone, online chatting to frens and called it a day at 1am.. Zzzzzz....

Days of the Week

Sunday 16 Jan 2005
Countdown: 4 days
Rise and shine.. sis' bf went out to get Mac breakfast for us.. I had hotcakes which I cant finish.. had to depend on my "trash can" mum to tabao the rest.. wahahaaa.. at 1pm, met up fernie at meritus mandarin for our photo shooting *YAY*, complimentary of metro singapore.. we, Jan babies get a free makeover and 2 3R shots from Eastarz Coverlooks.. Abit shitty here as we were told to bring our own outfits yet the voucher stated an outfit is provided.. However, dun think their outfits suit us anyway, they either look ah-lian, aunty, or simply, ah-lian aunty.. -_- and and, we were made to purchase 2 bloody pcs of sponge tat were used in our makeup at $9 per set.. shitty shitty!! they are some cheap sponges with the "Lady Rose" brand nia.. where got worth 9 bucks?? KaoZzzz... I had on a BLUE polka-dots halter top, so i had a BLUE makeup.. Fernie is in purple.. the digital shots are indeed irresistable not to get them, so fernie ordered 6 unedited shots while i ordered 5 plus 1 edited one.. total we paid 160+..

We had a late late lunch in Subway Sandwiches at Cineleisure.. first time I tasted a subway sandwich and i really like it though it was rather too much for me.. hehez.. will try other fillings next time.. ^_^ a quick shopping at cine follows, checked out the bikini store, the bra shop, the cute clothings corner and other funny shops.. moved on to heeren and began my hr-long beads hunting expedition.. the retail assts' attitudes SUX BIG TIME.. fernie yawn yawn.. so we proceed to Plaza Sing for more window shopping and to visit kaka.. mum called to say they'll be at chomp chomp ard 10pm.. so we took the train followed by bus to meet them there for dinner/supper.. we had a gratifying feast of chicken wings, hokkien mee, stingray, squid, chilli kangkong, rojak, satay and sugar cane juice! DOWNRIGHT SINFUL SIA..~!~!~!!!!! sis drove fernie home with 4 NOW-superheavy weights crammed at the back seat.. Home, showered off the stingray smell I captured in Chomp Chomp and did my usual regime again.. Zzzz at abt 2am..

Saturday 15 Jan 2005
Countdown: 5 days
Was at bro's hse the previous nite and played with kaikai.. mum saw the carrefour brochure there and initiated to visit carrefour the next day.. and so, we zoomed to suntec city at noon.. had dim sum for lunch at crystal jade and a frenzy shopping spree at carrefour.. total we burned abt 300 bucks.. i bot 2 triumph bras at 59.90, quite a bargain.. and 20 cans of tiger beer also on promo.. gotten 2 sets of playing cards free.. my, the cards are damn BIG and we joked in the car that even the blind can see *kekez*.. at home, sang some karaoke, then went hg plaza with mum&sis for the delicious black pepper chicken on hotplate.. back home, helped sis in carwash, with Christina Aguilera's "Carwash" kept ringing in my ears.. quite a nice experience.. first time i ever handwashed a car completely from the beginning to the end.. quite suaku hor~? still dun feel i've gotten enough exercise to work out those fats absorbed for dinner, i did the aerobics afterwards.. trying to coach sis and get her to do it with me, but she gave up too easily.. well, did it for half an hr before hitting the shower.. did my usual pre-time regime and slept really "early"..

Friday 14 Jan 2005
Countdown: 6 days
Today will be a busy day clearing those rubbish at work and get ready for my last week.. George from K+N came to see me this morning, gave me some very good advices on interview techniques and share his experience when he resigned from his previous job.. nice to speak to an elder in the industry.. spoken to SK abt my impending departure yest evening.. he seemed shocked.. hehehez.. and Ivan spoke to me abt an employement opportunity.. Tracy told me we might be getting our certificates soon ^_^

nonetheless there are tons of plannings for me till the end of the yr and onwards.. take a peek:

Short term:
Chalet Chalet!
Get a tan!
Short holiday alone
Learn Jewellery making
Basic driving theory
Do up resume
Do lotsa reading
Finish watching all the outstanding DVDs and VCDs at home
Watch Meet the Frockers and Kungfu hustle
Do aerobics and more aerobics
Learn Yoga

Mid term:
New job
Final driving theory
Driving lessons
Vocal training lessons

Longer term:
Driving license
Buy carcar
Career and financial stability

Where to slot in "New bf" ?? WAHAHAHAA.... ^_^

Everyone who's gg to D&D got to leave at 3pm, while those (like me) who chose not to attend the annual dinner at Rasa Sentosa with the "Retro" theme this evening will have to stay till usual knock off.. Okie, so at 3pm, Wee came to say goodbye, he will be on leave for the whole of next week, including my last day.. we took some picz just now.. hmm.. he looks sad, ya, think he got along the best with me.. as he always sing songs for me and did his usual complaints at me.. wahahaa.. ya, he's someone fun to be with.. Hmm.. i am still stuck here, blogging and waiting for knock off.. I DUN HAVE ANYTHING TO DO.. Just waiting for my last week and handover.. guess next week will be busy..

Thursday 13 Jan 2005
Countdown: 7 days
Feel abit sleepy today and late as usual.. bosses not in.. my plan tonite is to work off those calories gained at Marche yest by doing the aerobics with elle lata.. hehez..

Wednesday 12 Jan 2005
Countdown: 8 days
Boring day.. went Marche for dinner, complimentary of fernie's mum *thanks aunty!* followed by a window shop in compass point.. splurging forbidden.. jack called to discuss abt the chalet.. oh ya, people, come to my chalet! details will be released s00n~! ^_^

Tuesday 11 Jan 2005
Countdown: 9 days
Been daydreaming the whole day sia.. about starting a biz, about starting my line of costume jewellery.. wahahaaa.. Thinking of a name now.. rather bored today.. So, wore my x:odus shoes today and kena a major cut at the flesh above my left heel.. bleed :( and stained the shoe.. had to put plasters on both feet.. kAoZzzZzz... Oh yea, I wore a skirt to office today.. ya right, I seldom wear skirts.. Have to start revising my driving theory lor.. going to learn to drive a car car! When I get a job with a reasonable pay that can allow me to afford a cheap cheap korean car then I will BUY lor.. wahahaaa... future car owner~!
Spent a large chunk of my time surfing e-commerce site today and saw these lovely accessories:

Garden of Eden II: Lovely Earrings


Garden of Eden: Matching Necklace


Rose Bud Brooches - The white one sooo sweet!

Look at these Rose Buds Stud Earring.. sweet right??

Monday 10 Jan 2005
Countdown: 10 days
Its monday again and the 10th day of the year.. lamenting how fast time flies.. day by day, it passes just like tat.. i am feeling old again.. some statistics here, 16 days after christmas, 13 days before my 25th birthday and 30 days before cny.. 25th bday.. haizz.. 1/4 of a century old.. sms invitations to my first ever bday bbq.. rather heartwarming tat caixia accepted the invitation.. after 11 yrs of knowing her, she is still very ONZ.. i am ashamed of myself as I used to have some misgivings abt her.. yet, i promise tat from now onwards she will be entered as my hall of fame of best friends ^_^ Han rejected downright.. kinda disappointed yet expected.. after 7 yrs of friendship I know her very well.. she is those kind tat when she has problems, she will run to you but when things are great for her, she will MIA.. will keep telling u she has this guy after her, tat guy after her, and always narrate her so-called "love" story to you and how nice this or tat guy treated her.. to me, they are all silly and insignificant things tat will happen everyday, everywhere.. recalling those nights when she fell out of love, she called and cried for hrs, recalling last sep, she made me accompany her to changi airport and chat for hrs.. recalling those times when she gave me last minute "thingy" tat left me feeling annoyed and upset.. yet I still treated her as a good fren.. am I an angel?? Well, in my heart I know tat she wont reciprocate.. nonetheless I still appreciate the 7-yr period of knowing her.. just tat we are no longer close frens.. another disappointment tat sis wanted to go genting instead of attending my bbq.. haiz.. what to do..? anyway its up to her to spend her weekend anyway she wishes.. bloody shit.. nah.. keep my chin up and dun give in to the sadness devil ^_^ stay cheery :)

New Pictures~!

Xmas Steamboat and Gift exchange in my hse on boxing day~! These are the presents we prepared respectively for exchange...! Beneath the beautiful wrappers, Sam is holding a pink chomel butterfly necklace, Mira - a lip balm from top shop, Carrie - a cute cute notebook and Charlotte - a butterfly pic frame~!

Reflection from the mirror.. so my mum's mirror was fun.. agreed?~!

Hmm.. this one I like!! With Ah pok in the picture, mira acting like a taitai, 2 crazy gals' reflections who looked like some "flower-eaters" and charlotte - where are you..? Oh yea, behind the camera!~! (Take note: part of my mum's face is in the pic also lei~~!)

This is the most sane one among the insane pics we took at the dining table.. the dessert tasting session became a crazy pix-shooting feat.. there were xCBs, XcbS, xCbS and XCbs... got it..?! (I guess my mum was probably scratching her head when she saw this bunch of crazy gals in her hse..)

My carcar -- but now became kaikai's *sob*

Mashimaro shouts, "WHY??~!" Hehez.. xmas present courtesy of Ms Carrie.. again, alotta crazy pix were taken with my new Mashi.. Mashi can also have alotta fun~?~!

The k-gang at it again~! Blur sia... the auto-take function not so cool hor??! Oh yea, was taken on 2nd Jan.. were at K-box Hougang, killing chickens and cleansing my lungs.. paid a really great deal for this session.. wahahhaaa~!

If my feet werent in the picture, then I would appear something like 1.9m tall..
So we were acting like some super stars waving to the fans in our concert.. either its SHE with ella still in the hospital or twins wahahhaaa....

Oh Ya, this is a farewell pic to my cpu who's been with me thru the wind wind rain rain since 1999.. *sob*.. bye bye baobei.. farewell le!

This one taken outside DBS Tampines before xmas.. wah, I look chubby hor..! Cute or not??

2004 SingApore Osc0rs Awards

The Lan Actress of the Year goes to..... Ms Samantha Wendy Leo..!!

I am an actress, a terribly lan actress.. was just letting my thoughts run wild in the office today, and realised that I have been acting my life all these while.. I acted my life like a drama, a movie and another that can fight for a place in the Osc0rs Awards.. Then I realised, i am not a good actress, but an impractical and lousy actress.. no wonder I can't win my desired award, no wonder i can't win even the supporting roles.. I am just a lan actress..

I am so impractical.. i used to have silly thoughts in my weeny brain.. thinking that someday, my prince will come riding on a white horse.. someday my true love will come and we would live happily ever after.. perhaps that only happens in films, in fairy tales like snow white or cinderella.. that does not really happen in real life.. so i have been acting.. acting foolishly in a lonesome film, where nobody watches and nobody appreciates.. I have been acting in front of people, and lost understanding of the true meaning of life.. it opened my eyes to alot of things, such as the harsh world and the evilness in human hearts.. perhaps the weak will always be bullied.. I guess I acted a kind character then, with lots of innocence within, that's why I felt bullied.. I felt deceived by the world and I felt let down by those supposedly kind people I trust.. I was a blind actress..

I matured as an actress, yet I decided to quit acting.. I am just too lan in it.. acting isn't a suitable job for me.. I ought to find something which I can do better in.. From today onwards, I shall quit from the "entertainment" world and no more acting for me.. I want to live a real life, treating people sincerely and be straightforward in my thoughts and feelings.. dare to love and dare to hate.. no more hiding and shielding myself from this harsh world.. I will not be nominated for any awards again.. I will be my true self.. thank you for reading..

Dear Diary..

Sunday 9 Jan 2005
Alright man.. So today is Ah Gong's bday.. how old is he.. cant quite exactly remember, i think is 70+ liao bah.. well, ah gong initially wanted to eat out with the family.. wah, quite a large number with all the uncles, aunties, cousins, nieces and nephews.. so we decided to whip up some dishes into a potluck style and make it a mini buffet.. nice and economical.. sis and i helped mum to prepare the 4 dishes we decided to cook.. i did the dumplings and fried the chicken wings while sis did the vege and mum, the large pot of bee hoon.. cooking is indeed fun.. i havent done so in a long time and i certainly enjoyed the process.. though it was hot in the kitchen and smelly after the cooking feat, not forgetting the pile of dishes and cleaning you gonna do afterwards, cooking is still fun to me.. I think i gonna start learning new dishes and get myself some kitchen training in preparation for the "future".. wahahhaaa...! Yup, had a great time meeting my long-time-no-see relatives and sorta missed those days when we were young, with ah-mah still ard.. every weekend is this crowded.. yet, in recent yrs, we only have such gathering perhaps twice a yr.. cny and ah gong's bday only.. Yup, look forward to the coming cny~!


I made these wor... looks yummy right..??! Indeed yummy lei~!

Saturday 8 Jan 2005
Yup, late again for my last sat shift.. abit rainy lorz.. tot of indulging into some reading yet was told by boss teo to do some work.. strange, doing work for him isnt tat bored compared to boss Rak.. did a very good job as commented by him.. well well, quality counts when its work done by me :) just drank milo and now blogging + waiting for chris to meet up at the bus stop. we are going to jamie's ROM party!! both of us blur f**kz.. one, deleted jamie's address from the email, the other kept it in the office.. kaozz.. so we dun have her address, only have an idea where to go to.. so we shall shout from downstairs lorz.. wahhahaaa.. a pair of blur f**kz.. better not miss tat bus stop.. will update more on the party and such!

So we did miss a stop and took the same bus back.. the distance between the 2 stops is pretty long and our legs gonna break if we choose the walking mode.. wahahaa.. happy to meet up Jamie, "mama" and "papa"!! And collected my long-awaited xmas gifts!! Jamie gave me a card, a handmade pic frame, a book mark and a nice notebook made from mulberry tree~! While mama gave me an exquisite mirror.. wahaha.. second one I have received for xmas this yr.. ollie gave a similar one with a different design.. just wondering how to use 2 similar mirrors.. maybe i look too ugly sometimes or i have too many pimples on my face tat i would need 2 mirrors with 2x effect...!!! :P Oh yea, highlight: met up my "papa".. mama's bf who just came back from adelaide having completed his masters degree in corporate finance.. a very nice chap, easy going, knowledgeable and cool looking.. my "mama" has great taste sia..! looking forward to our next gathering on 23rd!!


Front: Chris, Jamie, Tracy (Mama) and Meeeee....

Friday 7 Jan 2005
Countdown: 13 days
Still late: 8.53am.. expected a shitty day today -_-
Yes, quite a shitty day with the boss.. hmm.. ORD mood, nvm, keep it happi :) Been rather relaxed with myself lately, feeling more energetic.. did aerobics 3 times this week (shd be sufficient bah) kinda feel the physique got better.. hehez.. legs like more toned.. hahaha.. ladies, start doing the aerobics today! went compass pt for dinner and shopping just now.. spent abt 20 bucks on a pair of track pants and panty hose.. oh ya, donated total $25 to the tsunami victims.. doing my best liao, gotta save for a rainy day mah.. :P last Sat shift tomolo.. haizz.. time passes too fast.. start to feel abit uneasy abt leaving avnet.. will i get used to bumming at home?? will i get used to life as an unemployed?? I dunno.. I look forward yet have this kinda mixed feelings.. haiz.. dunno la.. telling myself to be optimistic always.. life will be better after avnet.. 2005 will be better!!

Thursday 6 Jan 2005
Countdown: 14 days
Late but earlier today: 8.43am.. will try to be MORE on time tomolo..
went Tampines for a quick lunch with wee.. we had old chang kee outside metro tampines.. wahaha.. and drank ice lemon tea from BK.. boss spoke to me, wanting me to extend my stay yet i rejected him outright.. he looks pretty upset and i was pretty mean.. hmm.. well well, i watched mean girls last nite lor.. what do you expect?? i was there chatting with vincent this morning and told him abt my breakup with HIM.. well, vincent seems to be the only connection between me and HIM as he worked with both of us before.. he was damn shocked to hear that.. bo bian mah.. wahahhaa... then he came to my office in the afternoon for a brief chat.. kept asking me to stay in avnet.. dunno for what purpose.. wahahhaa... anyway, he's already married so no chance, gals.. !! quite good looking though, tall, large round eyes and charismatic.. yet getting alittle rounder each time.. hehehez.. well well, singapore could have lotsa guys like this.. watch out gentlemen!! the New Wendy is arriving!! :P

Wednesday 5 Jan 2005
Countdown: 15 days
SuperSuper LateLate: 9.05am
Heavy rain, missed 27 twice, took 88 instead. Terribly late. Slow server at work. Haizz.. sian at work..
So at home, watched Mean Girls DVD, did my usual stuff and watched half of The Day After Tomorrow.. Gonna continue the rest tomolo evening..

"Accept what you are able to do and what you are unable to do."
"Accept the past as past without denying or discarding it."
"Learn to forgive yourself and forgive others."
"Don't assume that it is too late to get involved."
"Love each other like there's no tomorrow."

Tuesday 4 Jan 2005
Countdown: 16 days
SuperSuper late: 8.59am
Work.. At home did the aerobics again, showered, watch dvd -- Chasing Liberty.. kinda boring show and I almost fell asleep.. missed the last 3 mins cuz the ending is already out but they are still dragging.. slept at midnight..

Monday 3 Jan 2005
Super late: 8.55am.. Chey, bochap, ORD mood.. Changed a new calendar for the new year.. Oh Yea, dunno issit last nite or the nite before, anyway, its one of those nites, I dreamt of JK.. wahahaa..! I missed him too much..?? Issit?? Issit not..?? Last nite begun reading "Tuesdays with Morrie", Char's book yet loaned from Carrie's home *hehez*, and already cleared almost half of the book by this morning.. inspirational writings indeed, from Professor Schwartz.. will be including these words very soon :)

"So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning."

Today is an ordinary day.. just work, home.. ya, went w/o lunch so came home and eat immediately.. ate alot wahahaa.. compensate for my missed lunch.. so at 730 i did the aerobics.. damn tiring.. but good exercise.. yet feel abit fainting after tat.. perhaps i din have enough sleep last nite.. showered then engage in online chat.. nothing much today, just an ordinary day..